Once there was a
puny little Czech concert violinist named Rudolf, who lived in Sweden. Some of
his friends thought he was not the best of musicians because he was restless;
others thought he was restless because he was not the best of musicians. At any
rate, he hit upon a way of making a living, with no competitors. Whether by
choice or necessity, he used to sail about Scandinavia in his small boat, all
alone, giving concerts in little seaport towns. If he found accompanists, well
and good; if not, he played works for unaccompanied violin; and it happened
once or twice that he wanted a piano so badly that he imagined one, and then he
played whole sonatas for violin and piano, with no piano in sight.
This vagabond way of life
suited him for several years, but eventually he longed for stability and permanence.
Although at 25 he was still a
young man, he was lonely and physically exhausted. After giving the matter
considerable thought, he decided to find lodging in the next town, and sailed
into the night with a sense of peaceful resolve.
After finding a suitable
apartment, he continued with
his concerts. But even after
several months, his life was just as lonely as it had always been.
Returning home after a
concert one night, Rudolf saw a young lady descending the stairs. He could see she
was crying.
Days later, he learned her
name was Anna and she lived upstairs with her stepfather. At first, she spoke
very little, but before long, a friendship of sorts developed between them.
One evening, Rudolf heard a
commotion coming from the apartment above. "I'm not goING TO tell you again to BE QUIET!!" roared
the stepfather. "And stop that crying'! I told your mama I'd look after
you, but you've been nothing but a pain in the arse since she died! You better
be careful or you'll find yourself out on the street. And we both know you haven't
the ability to take care of yourself!"
"This is none of my
business!" Rudolf silently told himself. And he knew full well it would be
problematic should he wish to play the hero. A poor, puny Czech with features
you could hardly describe as handsome; the thought was laughable even to him. Anna's
stepfather would "squish me like a bug," he thought out loud.
"And what would Anna think of me THEN?"
The next time he heard a
commotion from above, he peered out the door in case Anna should go out, as was
her custom in such situations. When he heard her footfall he intercepted her
before she reached the door.
"Please. Come inside. You
can compose yourself and give your stepfather time to cool down." She
hesitated then, eyes downcast, followed Rudolf into his apartment.
This ritual continued until
Rudolf could bear Anna's tears no longer. When she next took refuge in his
apartment, he expressed his fear for her safety. But stopped short of declaring
his feelings for her. Rejection was something he'd experienced frequently in
his life.
She assured him she had
somewhere to go if she felt in danger. And when she left, although not
convinced by her words, Rudolf felt somewhat reassured.
Rudolf continued his life of
loneliness, occasionally playing concerts. Eventually however, the audiences began
to dwindle and feeling a change was necessary, he decided to return to his boat
and once again sail from harbor to harbor.
It had been four long weeks
since his last conversation with Anna, and although he was relieved at no
longer hearing her cry on the stairs, he couldn't help wondering if all was
well. He'd hoped to see her before he left, but this was not to be. With a
heavy heart, he silently wished her well.
The next day, Rudolf made his
way back to his boat, and after checking that all remained in seaworthy
condition, he climbed aboard. When he was well clear of the harbor, he heard
the sound of music.
Upon hearing slight movement
under his bunk, he looked for something to use as a weapon, grabbed a metal
bucket and yelled "COME OUT!"
"It's me! Anna!"
"Whaaaaa...?" "How
did you......??"
"I followed you once. I
knew it would be the perfect place to be safe."
"How long have you been
here?" he asked.
"For the better part of
the month. When things got too bad, I would withdraw into my mind and imagine I
was playing a piano, but somehow, he could hear it. He always got very angry
when I did that."
After he'd begun drinking early
one day, he became more violent than usual. I was used to his yelling, but this
was different, and I became quite frightened. It was then I sneaked onto your
boat. I'm sorry. I didn't know where else to go."
Rudolf spent the next hour assuring
her that he was not angry. He knew returning to her stepfather was not an
option so they would decide something more permanent when they reached the next
town.
While making the small
quarters comfortable enough for two people Rudolf realized how ridiculous he
must have looked holding a bucket as a weapon, and began to laugh. "What did
I think I was going to do with a bucket?" Which caused Anna to laugh along with him.
This was a sound which had
never been heard on his boat, and they laughed until they had no breath left.
Rudolf dropped anchor, then
fashioned a bed of sorts for himself, and surrendered the bunk to Anna.
Finally feeling completely
safe, Anna soon fell asleep.
Rudolf, however, was unable
to do the same. On one hand, he feared his emotions, on the other he felt happy
for the first time in a very long time. He knew there was little chance of
anything more than friendship with Anna, and that would have to do; at least for
now he was no longer alone and lonely.
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